In Vain..

The month of May has just started and we were anticipating more of the sun’s fury, as likewise informed by our ever reliable PAGASA (?). Come May 1, a local holiday here in the Philippines, it was announced that we were to experience the hottest temperature to date, since January. And it was absolutely parching when me and my friends went outside to buy a can of Coke. We ran, no, we dashed to get to the nearest drugstore as we were literally roasting the minute we stepped out of the building. The can of coke was icy cold, and it was a a huge relief. I rolled the can over my head, my cheeks and my neck, feeling its coolness drench my sweat glands for a second. And then we dashed back in to the office, like we were running for our lives. Then the next thing we knew, the sun was no longer there and fell humongous droplets of rain from the then-black grey sky. It seemed angry, and it gave us a terrible downpour. Everything was blacker than anything else since then…

My boyfriend has not texted nor called me since last night. I’ve tried calling him probably thirty times in a row but his line was out of coverage. I was already anxious ‘coz he wasn’t also online. I thought he might have been charging his phone. It was raining really hard and lightnings were visible through my curtained windows. Power outage was also an option so I tried to calm down. I knew he was just at home and there was nothing to be worried about. I gushed myself for a bit on my favorite tv drama, let half an hour pass. I reached again for my phone and dialed, praying while waiting on the other line to just let it ring, just one ring and I could breathe. It rang, one, twice, thrice, and he cut it. That’s the usual move. He would cut my calls and call me back. However, he didnt. So I dialed again, another ring was heard and was cut again. Still, no return calls. I thought he might be having a hard time connecting, like before. Especially with the bad weather. I waited, yet again and  there was none. Just me, staring at my phone, waiting for a message that could have said “I couldn’t reach you”. That would have been better, at least. But there was nothing. I sent four or five messages, I said I miss him. We were supposed to go out today, but because of the awful weather, I wasn’t permitted to go. There was also flood on the streets already. It hurt me that I wouldn’t be seeing him for another week. And now this. The only communication we have when we’re not together, and it’s giving me a headache. He knew how I feel when I get worried. I cry, I cry really hard and bad thoughts creep up into my head. And then I’d cry harder, and he’s still not texting me. I haven’t even slept right the whole night due to power failure and I was thinking what was happening to him. I have no idea what was and is going on. And I am still waiting. I’ll probably be waiting all day..

 

Pretty Boys

I’m not certain if it’s just me, or I just find boys who look like, or are lovelier than girls, sexually magnetic. It does bother me a bit so I browsed through the web and found out that most women deem this insulting as it makes them feel less confident. I don’t know about that. I am loving Andrej Pejic now just as I loved the young Sebastian Bach. Come to think of it, the resemblance is quite astonishing. @____@

 

Which Android Phone should I get?!

My current phone is Alcatel OT-890D. I got it for a very affordable price and it’s Pink so I fell in love with it right away. However, after a few months, I grew tired of it and I want to get a new phone badly. Since my brother insists that he inherits the Alcatel phone, that saves me from the problem of what to do with it. As of this time, I’ve been browsing on youtube and watching video reviews of several android phones. The bigger problem now is which to buy? I have my eyes on HTC wildfire S, Alcatel OT-990, Sony Ericsson Live w/ walkman, LG Optimus Hub, Samsung Galaxy Y and still looking for more options. I don’t need a super high end phone. I’m fine with mid range android like 2.3.5 gingerbread, some decent sounding music player, capacitive touchscreen and nice resolution. Fast internet browsing as well of course. AND! should be pocket-friendly. Sigh. I’m going insane. Any suggestions? 😦

current phone:

Choices:

Happy Birthday boyfriend!

I just got home from a whole day date with my boyfriend to celebrate his 23rd birthday. I was actually perplexed and amused to hear that he doesn’t really celebrate his birthday. Most likely due to the aging issues, same goes for everyone else I know. Well, with me around, no birthday will pass un-celebrated. I sincerely wish John enjoyed the rest of the day as much as I did. Though my feet, legs, back and practically my entire body is screaming agony from exhaustion. Every ounce of pain I feel now is definitely worth it. I feel the pressure now. The next birthday should be better and each year a lot different from the previous one. On a different note, there will be a hell lot of time to prepare for that.

As of this writing, I just read his text message which was sent 25 minutes ago. Oops :/ How cute of him to ask me if I enjoyed the day. Apparently, today was such a perfect day. It was so wonderful that recalling back makes me want to cry again. Again because I shed a few tears earlier coz of so much bliss. There were too many words to tell, swimming in my head, but I couldn’t get them out and they just fell down in tears. He has this talent to make me feel so many things at the same time. Many splendid feelings left unnamed, for all I care. What I care about was this man in front of me, telling me he loves me. Calling me his “best gift in the longest time”. How can I not fall in love with this man?

John and Anne ~

My boyfriend said he was reading my blog, this blog, last night and for the Nth time, told me he loved reading my posts, like he was being taken back in time. When our love story was young and sweet :p

Thinking back, I couldn’t imagine that in the next 5 months, we would already be celebrating our 2nd year anniversary. It never felt nor it occurred to me, that we have been together for a while now. Because everytime I see him, my heart flutters in a childish, frenzy beat that I have felt during our first few dates. The funny, goosebumpy thrills never ceased. The streaming of joyful tears will run about endlessly, at the mere thought of his face, his warm embraces and gentle kisses that I could almost feel, everyday, every night. And I am certain that it is here to stay.

pedring

3 weeks ago, super typhoon pedring washed off our house. my home of nearly 25 years is now in ruins and still underneath about a foot-thick mud. our roof was a shredded piece of wood and steel on the floor, where our cream-colored vynil used to be. the 2 tv sets lay submerged on our ocean-house floor. on top of the tv sets sat our fridge. surrounded by broken glasses and twisted metals. our steel-screen door was nowhere. it must have been torn off the hedge, washed away by the tides and into the sea. it could have been found somewhere by the junkyard. clothes and shoes were all afloat. shoes can no longer be called a pair.
power’s off for almost month now. fusebox still dripping. there’s only still blackness against a now-sunny morning. our once home is no longer inhabitable. i hoped to have salvaged even my book collection. but there was nothing left except 4 walls..

what the eyes don’t see, the heart doesn’t grieve for

REAL STEEL

my boyfriend and I watched REAL STEEL last Sunday and as expected, our money’s worth the movie. REAL STEEL is unlike any ordinary robot movie. though it didnt have gigantic alien robots nor spaceships nor megan fox, it certainly brought my robots- fan-girl self back. *transformers took it away* ..it is definitely a must watch. i’ve felt surges of all kinds of emotions: thrill, anger, fear, fun, sadness, triumph, nostalgia. i was on my feet the entire time, swinging my fists in the air, trying to hit an invisible Zeus! i highly recommend REAL STEEL. for kids, families, boxing fans alike!

what the eyes don’t see, the heart doesn’t grieve for