i woke up at around past 8am..checked out on my mobile phone and viewed 4 unread messages. 2 of these came from ex. i read it like three times, my head was still hazy that minute. after the third time, it came to me. he’s in the hospital..again. *sigh” should i go? i’m not too sure if that was the right thing to do, i mean, i was also confined in the hospital for like half a month and he was there beside me all the time. that was last year, when i was still in love with him.
now its his turn to lay in the hospital bed. he texted me, perhaps with high hopes that i would drop by and take care of him. well, i wanted to. but my mom told me to let him be. after all, it was just meant to move me so that i we could get back together. something i wouldn’t do, not anymore. if he was attacking my conscience, its effective. but i’m totally clueless. what should i do? am i not really supposed to be there? true we just broke up, that was just three days ago. am i still committed to him somehow? *sigh* whatever could i do?
i am confised..really now
